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projects and writings of Tracy Burkholder

Lessons for Riding…

Read my piece “Lessons for Riding Before Dawn to Pilgrim’s First Landing’s Park, Provincetown, MA” over at PANK.

June 4, 2018 · 6 Comments

In Memoriam

“Well, imagine how it all could be among us if we began to understand all the talk about dying and the news about dying and the visits to the hospital … Continue reading

May 28, 2018 · 1 Comment

Snow feathers

On the evening news, everyone was giddy with snow panic. It would have been the same hyperbole if it had happened in December or January, but there was an added … Continue reading

February 20, 2018 · 1 Comment


 See the line as it is and draw it as a shape. Do not draw a chair, a suit, a hand. When I draw the shape and not the thing … Continue reading

January 17, 2018 · Leave a comment


Paper/Rock   Today, the back walls of my lungs went sticky with sadness. I cried/breathed through the dead hours of the morning then woke up to a sky that felt … Continue reading

December 1, 2017 · Leave a comment


I choose Before the Rain. When I start to describe the movie as Macedonian and Albanian, my partner holds up a hand, “That’s all you need to say.” He is history-minded and … Continue reading

September 9, 2016 · Leave a comment

Threat of Rain

This story was originally published in Vinyl, March 2016.   Threat of Rain   She couldn’t see or feel it yet, but it was there. All that wet wanting to … Continue reading

April 9, 2016 · Leave a comment


This essay originally appeared in The Cincinnati Review vol. 9.1 in the summer of 2012. It was selected as a Notable Essay in The Best American Essays 2013.   Proof … Continue reading

May 20, 2015 · Leave a comment

an unknown shape

This essay was first published on this blog in April 2014.   An Unknown Shape   I wanted. Again and then again. I wanted my body to make the shape … Continue reading

May 20, 2015 · 1 Comment


This essay originally appeared in The Clackamas Literary Review 2012 vol. XVII   Jumpers   I’ve been obsessed with the jumpers for months. Every day, I sit in front of … Continue reading

May 20, 2015 · Leave a comment


Read my essay “Restraint” over at Nailed Magazine.

May 19, 2015 · Leave a comment


Read my essay Paws over at The Feminist Wire.  

May 19, 2015 · Leave a comment